Afternoon gorgeous xx
How are you all doing today? I hope today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is better than today. If only that were true…
For the moment, with everything that is going on; that is exactly the case. And I’ll come to all of that in a minute; but for now, I have a really good story to tell. A milestone on my journey; in fact.
You see today; I got dressed and went shopping, with friends. Looking for a couple of bits and pieces for the flat – make it a bit more “girly”; so to speak. The internal feminisation is complete and I’m now working on the external, how I look and feel, how I live; I am woman, hear me roar.
All went well, no interruptions, apart from one woman who did a double take when she seen my face – didn’t bother me, I thought it was quite cool.
But then I got home. And as I arrived, I was greeted by a new postman. To whom I said hello to. Nice chap, very talkative.
I got my shopping from the car in two trips; and headed indoors. As I did so, he was delivering a parcel to my neighbours; who were out. I said I’d take it in. He questioned me. I said I knew them and took the parcel. We both thought no more of it.
He carded my neighbour and turned to my door, as I was going through it. He asked me did I live there; to which I said yes. It was what happened next; by both him and me, that shocked me.
He asked me what my husband’s name was. And I immediately responded with “Robert”; my former name and he said, “You must be Victoria then”. And handed me all my mail.
It was then that I realised what had just happened…
Even though I was speaking to him in a relatively low, masculine, tone. Every visual cue that he was given said to him that I was female. So he assumed I was female and I never corrected him. I’d done it; and I had the proof. I’d become a woman.
I couldn’t believe it as he turned and left. Had this really just happened? Did he just refer to my former name as my husband? I wasn’t wearing a wedding ring; so maybe I should? But before he gave me the chance to correct him, he was gone. And at that moment, Robert had finally died; and was gone, and Vikki is now complete. My social transition to a woman – stage two – is now complete.
So where do we go from here?
Well, there’s still a lot of work to be done. It’s time to live my life as I want to now. I don’t have to hide behind any shadows anymore. I have stepped out into the light and become who I wanted to be. I just need to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life; and get out there and do it.
There really is nothing to stop me now as I’m no longer scared of myself and who I am.
Now is my time to shine.